Hi...Remember me? Sorry it's been a while since my last post. I've been...uh...busy. I've been busy with diaper changes, baths, bottles, doctors appointments....loooooooots of doctor's appointments, and cuddles...looooooooots of cuddles. I have loved every minute of being a mom, even the hard minutes of breathing treatments and antibiotics. In the last 4 1/2 months the baby has had RSV twice, Pneumonia at least twice possibly 3 times, bronchiolitis twice, and 2 ear infections. It's been very challenging but she's finally doing really well. She had an appointment with her pulmonary doctor today and he said she's doing great! She's 26 1/2 inches tall and weighs 16lbs 10.8 oz!
So, ready for some happy updates?! When baby came to us she was on seizure medication because her previous foster mom had reported "seizure activity" but could never get documentation (video) of said activity. On August 9th Sweet Pea had a "100% normal EEG" and the Doctor said we could start weaning her off of the medication! Yay!! She took her last dose last Monday on my first day home with her. Which brings me to happy news #2!
All of my life, all I've ever wanted was to be a stay at home mom. That was only emphasized when we got Sweet Pea. It killed me to leave her for 8+ hours per day knowing we'll only have her for a few more months. I don't want to miss anything with her. My husband and I talked about what it would take for me to be able to quit my job. When we got Sweet Pea, I split our finances up just to see if we could live off of Cliff's income alone. Time showed we could. We'd have to cut back on some things but we could make it work. Then my husband got a raise! We discussed it in more detail because it looked like after all this time and me always talking about "when I get to stay home..." I was actually going to get to quit my job and raise babies!! Around the same time, there were changes that were going to be taking place with my job and my boss kept talking about "we'll have you on this work group" and "we'll send you to this class/meeting/etc". I didn't feel it was right to keep my boss in the dark about my intentions to leave when she kept making references about my future in my current position. So I ended up giving about a 6 week notice instead of the customary 2 weeks. I have not been happier. Last week was my first full week as a stay at home mom. I got absolutely nothing accomplished and loved every second.
I am SO very grateful for my husband who is willing to take the responsibility for being the sole financial supporter for our family. I'm grateful that it is as important to him as it is to me to stay home with our kids. I'm grateful he loves me enough to help make my dream a reality.
I'll be honest...I never thought I could ever possibly be this happy. NEVER in my life has anything gone the way I'd dreamed or imagined it. Other than meeting NKOTB, none of my dreams have ever become a reality until now. I've never been this happy with my life. It's such a foreign feeling. Am I allowed to be this happy? When is the other shoe going to drop? I picture myself walking in an open field and a piano falling out of the sky and landing directly on me. At my funeral, people will shake their head and say "it was the darndest thing. outta frikkin nowhere a piano BAM!!! Just when everything was going so good for her". Nah, I'll not look a gift horse in the mouth. I'll take this joy with me every day for the rest of my life. Even on rough days, I'll remember what it was like for someone to call me "Mom-mom" and smile from the depths of my soul.
Now that I'm not working hopefully I'll be able to blog a little more often. Lots of changes will be coming our way as things are lined up for Sweet Pea to transition to her home, wherever that may be. I'll be sure to keep everyone updated because when the time comes, Cliff and I will need the support. We've grown to love her SO MUCH that it will rip our hearts out when she leaves. We can use all the support and prayer our friends can offer.
Thank you all for your support up to this point! We really appreciate everything :)